i search the sky for satellites
wishing violently for telescope eyes
as You wear Your silence like a crown
and number my days
here in this brambled field
where my paper flesh tears and catches
on thorns and briers
[all lies]
and i open veins for You
time and again
screaming at the sky
[this is no siren’s kiss, this bleeding love]

these are my tearstained eyes
my dirty fingernails
from where i wrote You
letters in this red earth
signed in blood, lowercase
i am always only i
as long as You Are